In My Head

Was this a real thing? or were you just trying to win an Oscar 
for best actress, I felt like the biggest fan at a concert
front row, you were all in my front seat
we planned a whole life together i thought that you loved me
you think it’s all dumb sweet
until you get that call at the late hour
break-up over the phone, you just seem like a great coward
tell me that i can’t cut it, you left me laying, you shook me up
insecurities buzzin, i’m feeling like I ain’t good enough

I feel it…
cut deep in the chest
don’t kill me
you’re letting me be a mess
and you told me
that you’d always be there
but i’m lonely
how could you break that promise

that you would always be there for my company
i asked if you’d be my girl, you said you’d love to be
and at the time i was sitting in this comfortably

you wanna tell me that you’re no longer in love with me?

i’m like
HOW?
at the time where i needed you the most,
you left me in the cold
left me all froze, and now it’s all gone
tell me how I’m supposed to pick this up and move on

when you did it unexpected, if it’s a little game you won
i never knew that moving on could ever take this long
and now i’m spilling all my feelings while i make this song
was it real or was it all up in my cranium